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arthur_p_dent) wrote2024-10-25 10:22 pm
arthur_p_dent) wrote2024-10-25 10:22 pm
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This past week...
I'm a couple days late this week, partly due to being very tired a lot, and partly due to just not feeling like turning on the computer. Even now I'm on the fence about being here, and I think the only reason I am is because there's a couple things really need to take care of after this. But anyway...
Last weekend was ok, despite not getting to take Friday off. I did manage to complete my running goal of doing the half-marathon distance of 21km on Saturday. The first 17km was very steady, but then I hit a bit of a wall and struggled for the final 4km. But overall I did quite well - 2 hours and 34 minutes, which is a full 9 minutes faster than the last time I did that distance back in 2015. Next year I'm registering for an official race in October, and hopefully by then I'll have improved even more.
Taking a 4-hour chunk out of the weekend did make it a bit strenuous getting everything else done, but fortunately it was a lighter weekend for chores so I did manage to finish it all without anything carrying over into the week. Probably a good thing, because the last several days haven't been the greatest. I've been in a lousy mood for a couple of different reasons, and I'm having trouble shaking it.
Work has been part of it. My boss wants me to go to one of the plants in the US to help with training people on how to use our systems. Funny thing is, the things I'm supposed to train these people on are things that I don't have access to and have never done - so in order to teach them, I would first have to learn it all myself. Make sense to you? Because it sure as shit doesn't make any sense to me. Then there's this other person who was transferred down from another plant, who after two weeks is reporting that something that is one of my major responsibilities is being done totally wrong. Nothing to back it up, just telling his superiors that it's wrong, and that's why they're having problems. Worst idea ever was putting that guy on a group call with me - I don't think he got more than 12 words in during the whole meeting, and two days later still hasn't shown any support for his claims.
The other thing impacting my mood has been... well, basically it's just my brain taking a random thought and spiraling down to the worst possible conclusions. Without getting into the details, the upshot has been a very heavy sense of loneliness. I had lunch with my good friend today and talked to her about it. It was a good conversation, and I felt a bit better for being able to verbalize it rather than keeping it bottled up. I don't know that there's any actual solution though - I think it's just something that I'm going to have to get over (easier said than done when you're a over-thinker).
These things took quite a toll on me during the week, and I found myself sleeping poorly, getting up late, and having no motivation to keep up with chores or exercise. Having today off, I spent some time catching up on all of those things, and even though it wasn't a particularly restful day off, I still feel better for getting back on track. With any luck the weekend will continue to go well, and I can start next week in better spirits.
And with that I will bid you all farewell, and wish you the best for the week to come. See you again soon. =]
Last weekend was ok, despite not getting to take Friday off. I did manage to complete my running goal of doing the half-marathon distance of 21km on Saturday. The first 17km was very steady, but then I hit a bit of a wall and struggled for the final 4km. But overall I did quite well - 2 hours and 34 minutes, which is a full 9 minutes faster than the last time I did that distance back in 2015. Next year I'm registering for an official race in October, and hopefully by then I'll have improved even more.
Taking a 4-hour chunk out of the weekend did make it a bit strenuous getting everything else done, but fortunately it was a lighter weekend for chores so I did manage to finish it all without anything carrying over into the week. Probably a good thing, because the last several days haven't been the greatest. I've been in a lousy mood for a couple of different reasons, and I'm having trouble shaking it.
Work has been part of it. My boss wants me to go to one of the plants in the US to help with training people on how to use our systems. Funny thing is, the things I'm supposed to train these people on are things that I don't have access to and have never done - so in order to teach them, I would first have to learn it all myself. Make sense to you? Because it sure as shit doesn't make any sense to me. Then there's this other person who was transferred down from another plant, who after two weeks is reporting that something that is one of my major responsibilities is being done totally wrong. Nothing to back it up, just telling his superiors that it's wrong, and that's why they're having problems. Worst idea ever was putting that guy on a group call with me - I don't think he got more than 12 words in during the whole meeting, and two days later still hasn't shown any support for his claims.
The other thing impacting my mood has been... well, basically it's just my brain taking a random thought and spiraling down to the worst possible conclusions. Without getting into the details, the upshot has been a very heavy sense of loneliness. I had lunch with my good friend today and talked to her about it. It was a good conversation, and I felt a bit better for being able to verbalize it rather than keeping it bottled up. I don't know that there's any actual solution though - I think it's just something that I'm going to have to get over (easier said than done when you're a over-thinker).
These things took quite a toll on me during the week, and I found myself sleeping poorly, getting up late, and having no motivation to keep up with chores or exercise. Having today off, I spent some time catching up on all of those things, and even though it wasn't a particularly restful day off, I still feel better for getting back on track. With any luck the weekend will continue to go well, and I can start next week in better spirits.
And with that I will bid you all farewell, and wish you the best for the week to come. See you again soon. =]