Those kinds of introspective questions can be doozies, can't they? There are so often so many considerations and concerns and follow-up questions to sift through. So many interesting revelations can come to light. Especially when your brain can't be bothered to settle down long enough to sleep!

Sorry to hear that you've been run so ragged at work and struggling with household tasks on top of it-- even more sorry to hear that it's not a trend you can look forward to bucking soon. That stress being compounded by the forced separation of lockdown is so disheartening. The part of the brain that craves social contact isn't easily soothed by logical reasons that contact is being denied, perhaps more so when it's not an aspect of the self that's been given much notice before.

I hope things improve for you as soon as they possibly can! And that you're able to post a little more often even in the meantime :D